What' is life!?

I still contemplating about life and tryin to comprehence it to the fullest but the more I try to understand the more strange derange it became intensify suprise by the crazy state of mind I've recieved, it's pretty sad to say but atleast I' knew where I'm at. Most of the time I'm trying to express myself through lyrics that I've jotted down cursin n busting my rhyme, calming myself to the point of a state of being forgotten. It's appear to me that life ain't seem like what we've thought, and most of us are trying to bring uncertains things into life without acknowledge its consequence. changing one thing can affect the other, though it strange by choosing not to be change can also gain another. so what we do? oh man I am complete stall can no longer recall how I get this far.This is my old poem written 4 years agoTearing my soul apart I ain’t proud out of controlAssumption becoming reality, I see something confronting meAfraid to fold estimate eliminate you goWho woulda know arrogate you fake took what it take now make me seeImpersonate you lie for god-sake wanna debate me you dieInvade my cake contaminate that fate that I’m goinDelegate my soul initiated unfold story applyThem con' I bond consequence act on uponDetermine my cord infatuated by corpsI would have drop them pop opposite phenomenonIllusion effect bases the mist kiss my fist?This? That? Exaggerate my code devote you lieBreaking run! Best to die! Disaster comes! Time to cryReveal yourself hence expose your soulCoordinated back up the wraith eliminate the deadDisguise fact attack truth for legitimate?Choose to break indoctrinated?Inaccurate but dumb, so descending loseCorrupt your soul for the devilDepress no hope to absorbs them evilNo sun to shine and compel the lightLosing yourself death await you diedNo moral no dignity unimaginableCan’t breath no live undefinableConscience vanish now I'm lose it all